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***5. 15***^***th***^ ***AFB -Job Field Airbase***
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**Nature's Dumbest Animal**
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Nature's Dumbest Animal
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The story reaches its' climax at Adir's final stationing, where all
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faults are magnified, and all lessons are applied. Adir is friendlier,
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@@ -121,7 +121,7 @@ of bad depression and recklessness.
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Despite learning and maturing, Adir at times shows himself worse than
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those he now fiercely hates.
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***6. Release***
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6\. Release
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Though greatly anticipated, Adir is released at once and without
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ceremony. The base closes down, leaving Adir alone to cope with a place
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The Difference Between an Idiot and a Moron
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Adir sat alone in the waiting room. He could feel the receptionist\'s
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eyes on him, and huddled nervously on a plain plastic chair.
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eyes on him, and huddled nervously on a simple plastic chair.
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He was in a small, light-beige colored room, the color almost identical
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to his uniform, blending him in, swallowing him like an unmerciful
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beast. Soft traces of strong noon daylight came through the milky glass
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panels around the door.
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to his uniform, blending him in, swallowing him. Traces of strong noon
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daylight came through the milky glass panels around the door.
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Upon it, a small plain plaque read 'Dedicated Personel Officer'.
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A plain, small plaque read 'Dedicated Personnel Officer'.
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The room was lit with harsh white halogen bulbs - Adir could scarcely
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raise his head without instinctively reaching for his temples. Some
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@@ -18,37 +17,39 @@ he felt it was a weak, false facade.
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Adir had forgotten how uncomfortable the uniform is. The heavy black
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boots, the rough unbreathing fabric, the shirt tucked into the pants,
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the vile warm beret on his shoulder. It was the smallest touch he hated
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the most -- the cold metal dogtag touching his heart. He always wore it
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over his shirt against regulations, dreading the cold metal -- but he
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could feel it seeping through the worn fabric.
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the vile warm beret on his shoulder, yet of all those it was the
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smallest touch he hated the most -- the cold metal dog-tag touching his
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heart. He always wore it over his shirt, against regulations, dreading
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the cold metal -- but he could still feel the cold seeping through the
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worn fabric.
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Though he had his phone, Adir could not bring himself to use it -- it
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still felt unnatural to him, used as he was to spending his days away
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from it. From the endless sea of information, entertainment and comforts
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of the Internet, he could think of nothing to do, and so sat there
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staring at his heavy black boots, adjusting his shirt, his socks or his
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cuffs.
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Adir could not even bring himself to use his phone, snugly tucked away
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in his pocket. Having spent so much of his time cut off it still felt
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unnatural to him, alien, even wrong. From the endless sea of
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information, entertainment and comforts of the Internet, he could think
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of nothing to do, and so sat there awkwardly staring at his heavy black
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boots, adjusting his shirt, his socks or his cuffs and being generally
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miserable.
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The door suddenly opened and a pretty, middle aged woman stepped out
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decisively.
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with bold, confident movement.
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Upon seeing him, she drew her notepad and searched it intently.
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'Hello! Welcome! Good to have you here!' she said sweetly. Too sweetly,
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Adir thought.
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'Hello! Welcome! Good to have you here!' she said sweetly. Perhaps too
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sweetly.
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*Help has finally come*, he thought. *I shouldn't be so bitter.*
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\'You are... Tom! Was it? I\'ll see you inside in just a minute, Tom.\'
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'Adir', he croaked in response, surprised at how feeble his voice was.
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'I see. There must be some mistake -- I was expecting a young man named
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Tom. Rachel, when is Tom's appointment due?'
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That took her aback. 'I see. There must be some mistake -- I was
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expecting a young man named Tom. Rachel, when is Tom's appointment due?'
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'10:30', the receptionist shot back without drawing breath.
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'10:30', the receptionist shot back without so much as drawing breath.
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'Well, I shan't wait any further then. Adir, you're scheduled for...
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11:30, was it?"
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'Well, I shan't wait any further then - it\'s been long enough. Adir,
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you're scheduled for... 11:45, was it?\"
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"12:00"
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@@ -56,11 +57,13 @@ Tom. Rachel, when is Tom's appointment due?'
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"12:00"
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"Well then, there's no need for you to be here so soon. You can go back
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to the office in the meantime"
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"Well then, there's certainly no need for you to be here so soon. You
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can go back to your office in the meantime. We\'ll ring you up."
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Adir stared at his feet, never meeting the officer's gaze. He made no
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move to rise.
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The receptionist stared murder at her.
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Adir, in turn, stared at his feet. He made no move to rise, never
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meeting the officer's gaze. She sighed deeply.
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"\...Though I suppose I *could* push your appointment early", the
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officer said, mild irritation slipping into her voice. "How about you
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"Adir?", the officer offered sweetly. "Come on inside".
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The Dedicated Personel Officer's room was not large, but it felt
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He shot one last frightened look at reception and stepped in.
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The Dedicated Personnel Officer's room was not large, but it felt
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spacious thanks to the grand floor-to-ceiling window overlooking the
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entryway outside. Adir could just see the soldiers streaming in and out
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of the building. The only furnishings were a simple, standard issue
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wooden desk and three more simple plastic chairs against the wall,
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facing ninety degrees from the desk. A few simple photos were on the
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walls, as well as a small picture frame on the desk -- yet he could not
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make out anything in them.
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entryway outside -- Adir could just see the soldiers streaming in and
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out of the luxurious building. The only furnishings were a simple,
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standard issue wooden desk and three more simple plastic chairs lined
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against the wall, facing ninety degrees from the desk. A few simple
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photos were on the walls, as well as a small picture frame on the desk
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-- he could not make out anything in them.
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The officer made her way behind the desk, her back to the window, with
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well adjusted movements.
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"You can sit down, Adir. It's the same price", she said softly, and Adir
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-- who had not realized he was still standing, sat down flustered and
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huched on the middle chair. The officer watched him with observant eyes
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but made no remark.
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"You can sit down, Adir. Please do feel comfortable", she said softly.
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He had not realized he was still standing, towering over her like some
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big dumb golem - and so, flustered, he sat down hunched on the middle
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chair. The officer watched him with observant eyes but made no remark.
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"Adir, I am Tamara. I've been a psychologist here for just over fifteen
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\"Hello, Adir.\"
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\"Hi.\".
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\"I am Tamara -- I've been a psychologist here for just over fifteen
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years now. I am the head of the personnel department, and I do not
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usually treat soldiers as they come in, aside from more severe cases.
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However, I understand you've been waiting for some time -- a month or
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so, was it?"
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*However*, I understand you've been waiting for some time -- a month or
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so, was it?\"
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"Since December", Adir answered weakly.
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"Since December."
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"No, no, that cannot be. How long have you been waiting, Adir?"
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"No, no, that can't be right. How long have you been waiting, Adir?"
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"Since December", Adir said again, finally finding some fortitude in his
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voice. "I've asked for an appointment in early November. It was
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scheduled for December".
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\"Are you certain?\"
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He nodded.
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"Adir, you're already here", Tamara said in a comforting voice. "I
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understand how you feel, truly, but there's no need to make an
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impression".
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Adir drew in a breath, and maintained his silence.
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"Well never mind about that -- I can look into it later. Tell me about
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yourself, Adir."
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\"Well, that\'s interesting - never mind about that, I can look into it
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later. Shall we begin?\"
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\"Tell me about yourself, Adir.\"
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"Not much to tell."
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This time, Tamara maintened her silence.
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This time, it was Tamara who maintained her silence.
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"I was drafted in December, last year. One month of boot camp. Four
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months of training. Five months in 108. And here since".
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"I was drafted in December, last year\", Adir said after giving it some
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thought. \"One month of boot camp. Four months of training. Five months
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in 108. And here since".
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"So it says in your file, Adir. Let's go over it, just in case. You
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are... 20?"
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"Born late December, '97"
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"Had birthday in boot camp", he chuckled nervously.
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"Had 19 in boot camp", he chuckled.
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"Both parents are well?"
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"Have both parents?"
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"Thankfully yes"
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"Fortunately, yes"
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"Do you have any siblings?"
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"Any siblings? Brothers, sisters?"
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"A younger sister, and a younger brother."
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" I'll need you to fill in their details here, please". She handed him a
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form and a pen on her notepad. He painstakingly scribbled them bit by
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bit -- it took a surprisingly long time.
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"Fill in their details here, please". She handed him a form and a pen on
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her notepad. Adir painstakingly filled them -- it took a surprisingly
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long time.
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"Any of them in service?" she asked as he was slaving away.
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"No."
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"Isn't your sister of age?"
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"Your sister - isn\'t she of age?"
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"She is."
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"I'm really proud of her".
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"How about your younger brother?"
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"How about your brother?"
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"He's fine. Good student."
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"Where does your father work?"
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"Ministry of Defence"
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"Ministry of Defense"
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"Sounds interesting. What does he do?"
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"She is."
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"What kind of lawyer?"
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"Of what field?"
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"Workspace law. I was the most well treated waiter on Earth."
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"So, let's go over your service thus far, shall we?"
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Adir vaguely gestured a 'go ahead'.
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"What is your role called, again?"
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"I am a Computing Systems Infastructure Manager".
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"I am a Computing Systems Infrastructure Manager".
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"Role number?" she asked, scribbling.
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"1850".
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"Never heard of it before"
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"Never heard of it before."
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"It's not air force. Communication corps"
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"That explains it. What do you do?"
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"Ah! that explains it. What do you do?"
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"We're in charge of maintaining the military's operational data centers
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and classified computing systems. Spread throughout the corps"
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"Must be interesting".
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Adir said nothing, and Tamara surveyed him cautiously.
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Adir struggled for words, brows furrowed, and relented with a tense
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silence. Tamara surveyed him cautiously.
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"You went to boot camp at... Spring Buds rookie base?"
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"Yes."
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He nodded.
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"December boot camp in the south. Hard introduction."
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"December boot camp in the south. Hard introduction to military life."
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"We heard jets and mortars at night."
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"Must be hard."
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"It was interesting. Didn't struggle especially."
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"For those fighting, I'm sure. I can't say I struggled especially."
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"Following that, you were stationed at the Cyber Defence Academy."
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"Following that, you were stationed at the Cyber Defense Academy."
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"Defense Forces Academy Of Computer Professions And Cyberspace Defense",
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he intoned sarcastically.
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"Defense Forces Academy Of Computer Professions And Cyberspace
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Defense\", Adir recited out of habit. \"It's a mouthful."
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"If you say so"
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"It's a mouthful"
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"What did you study?"
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"What did you study there?"
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"It's a very wide field. There's been a touch of everything. Some
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Operating systems. Some databases. A bit of computer hardware. Some
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"What's drawn you into computers?"
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"Nothing at all."
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"Nothing at all, really".
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Tamara looked at him questioningly.
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"It's a cold, dead field."
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"It sounds like you've gone through some hardcore training. If that's
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why you think -- why did you do it?"
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\"Yet it sounds like you've gone through some hardcore training. Five
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months is a *really* long time for basic training.\"
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\"It was brutal. Studying nonstop from 7AM close to midnight.\"
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\"Why go through all that, then?\"
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"That's what they offered."
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"They?"
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"The army."
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"It's a voluntary course."
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"Had no other choice lined up. It sounded cool at the time, so I went
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for it."
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"I had no other choice lined up."
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"Let's go over your education, Adir. Finished highschool?"
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"Not me," he said.
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Tamara caught his gaze and held it intently. This was the first time he
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had seen her eyes.
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Tamara caught his gaze and held it intently. That was the first time he
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had seen her eyes. They seemed soft, but now they carried a fierce
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intensity - something he had not seen in a good while.
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"What did you study in highschool?"
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"I wasn't expecting it as an army job."
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"It's funny. Many young men base their studies on their aspired military
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role. Some earn their training in service."
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"Funny you should say so. Many young men base their studies on their
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aspired military role. Some even earn their training in service."
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"Not me."
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"I didn't choose."
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"Many young soldiers are dissatisfied in service. But if everyone had a
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choice, the army could not stay afloat," she questioned him pointedly,
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"Would it?"
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\"You could petition for a different role. It\'s not set in stone\"
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"I don't care for that discussion. I was asked to serve, so I did."
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\"I did not choose to serve.\"
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"Adir, Many young soldiers are dissatisfied in service. But if everyone
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had a choice, the army could not stay afloat," she questioned him
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pointedly, "Could it?"
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"I don't care for that discussion. Nor am I complaining. I was asked to
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serve, so I did - still, it deserves acknowledgment."
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"How do you feel about it?"
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"There's no way to feel about it. It's a fact of life. So I just don't
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bother."
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\"About what?\"
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"That's an interesting response, Adir. Most young men I meet here rage
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against that 'fact', as you put it. They feel powerless since they
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refuse to accept it, and struggle against it until they are released,
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and some even well afterwards."
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\"The lack of choice.\"
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"There's no way to feel about it. It's a fact of life. I had no say. So
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I just don't bother."
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"That's an interesting response. Most of those I meet here rage against
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that 'fact', as you put it. They feel powerless since they refuse to
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accept it, and struggle against it until they are released - and some
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even well afterwards."
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"Can imagine. Not very useful, though."
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"Would you say that's important to you? Acting useful?"
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"That's a whole other discussion."
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"So what's hurting you, Adir? You know where you stand. You knew this
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was coming, from what I gather. Everything's fine at home. It sounds
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like you lead a good life thus far."
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Adir composed himself and stared back.
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"I am depressed", he said. It still hurt admitting it, but it *was*
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getting easier.
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getting easier. He hated how it was getting easier.
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"I wouldn't say it's up to you to decide; you hadn't visited a mental
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health professional, as we've established. Or have you?"
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"What makes you think you're depressed, Adir?"
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He took a deep breath and gathered his thoughts. Somehow, the question
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never occurred to him. He just was depressed.
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"It's the small things. It gets harder to get out of bed every day. My
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head always hurts, and I can never concentrate anymore."
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Tamara listened intently and said nothing.
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"I just don't care about anything anymore. I don't bother seeing my
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"I... I just don't care about anything anymore. I don't bother seeing my
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friends, or doing anything for myself, or at all really. I feel hollow,
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and cold. I'm always so, so tired."
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and cold. And I'm always so, so tired."
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Tamara remained silent.
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a blank room, and everything's absolutely fine -- I'll just... get sad.
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Just because."
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Tamara nodded and thought. Adir said nothing.
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Tamara nodded in thought. Adir said nothing.
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"Why do you think you feel like that?"
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"What is it do you think you think made you feel like that? Is there
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something specific you can point out?"
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"I... don't know. I've always been resilient. Nothing really happened
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and I just... broke down."\
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"I... don't know. I've always been resilient". He paused. "Nothing
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*really* happened, and I just... broke down."\
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"How have you been coping?"
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"I haven't, really. Back during training, I could still function.
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Nowadays, I'm utterly useless."
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"I don't feel like I did at all. Back during training, I could still
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somehow function. But I remember feeling like there's a stone in my
|
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chest, and every day it got a little bigger. It gets harder and harder
|
||||
to breath. Nowadays, I'm utterly useless."
|
||||
|
||||
"Surely you're not utterly useless."
|
||||
|
||||
"I haven't been working a good several months now. Nobody bothers."
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"I haven't been working a good several months now. Nobody bothers with
|
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me."
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|
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"What do you mean?"
|
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"Nobody... bother with you? What do you mean?"
|
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|
||||
"They kicked me out. I know my job, and I know it damn well. But they
|
||||
thought I wasn't worth it. And I've been idle ever since."
|
||||
"They kicked me out. I know my job, and I know it damn well -- whatever
|
||||
else they may say about me, none has said otherwise. But apparently,
|
||||
they thought I wasn't worth it. I was kicked out. And I've been idle
|
||||
ever since."
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|
||||
"Adir, nobody thinks you're 'not worth it'. You are here, getting
|
||||
treatment, aren't you?"
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@@ -448,7 +481,7 @@ treatment, aren't you?"
|
||||
|
||||
"Let's not go to such harsh tones! I'm here to help, Adir"
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||||
|
||||
"You see," he said passionately, "I'm sure you are. And my commanders
|
||||
"You see," he said passionately, \"I'm sure you are. And my commanders
|
||||
have been saying the same thing since boot camp. But at the end of the
|
||||
day, those are all just big words that don't amount to anything. I've
|
||||
been struggling for... eighteen months now. And I've yet to see anyone
|
||||
@@ -457,7 +490,7 @@ lift a finger.
|
||||
I'm not saying this against you -- I know how it sounds, but I'm not,
|
||||
really.
|
||||
|
||||
But I've lost faith. I'll believe it when I see it."
|
||||
But I've lost faith. I'll believe it when I see it.\"
|
||||
|
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"I'm sorry you feel that way," she said.
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||||
|
||||
@@ -471,14 +504,14 @@ wet towel."
|
||||
|
||||
"How so?"
|
||||
|
||||
"Training is supposed to be another four months over the Communication
|
||||
\"Training is supposed to be another four months over the Communication
|
||||
corp training. I've already done it in Hutspace. I had the same role.
|
||||
But they insisted I go through it again.
|
||||
|
||||
Fine. I did. It took me two weeks -- and they just said I should wait
|
||||
until I get enrolled into shifts. That never happened. They 'didn't like
|
||||
my energy'. When I came to ask them what's that all about, I was
|
||||
berated."
|
||||
berated.\"
|
||||
|
||||
"What did they tell you?"
|
||||
|
||||
@@ -533,13 +566,13 @@ doesn't".
|
||||
|
||||
Tamara sighed.
|
||||
|
||||
"I'll tell you what, Adir. I think you're just a little misplaced. Many
|
||||
\"I'll tell you what, Adir. I think you're just a little misplaced. Many
|
||||
young men have trouble adapting to their new roles, especially those
|
||||
that grasp themselves as resilient -- like you. I think we can have a
|
||||
long talk with your new commanding officer, get you reinstated, and keep
|
||||
talking from there.
|
||||
|
||||
How does that sound?"
|
||||
How does that sound?\"
|
||||
|
||||
"The new commanding officer," Adir said, "Is from Hutspace, and
|
||||
witnessed the whole spectacle I threw to get myself out of there. She's
|
||||
@@ -580,7 +613,7 @@ emails?"
|
||||
|
||||
"Adir, it just can't be. I'm sorry, but I don't accept this"
|
||||
|
||||
"And I do? It's degrading. I've never been so humiliated in my life.
|
||||
\"And I do? It's degrading. I've never been so humiliated in my life.
|
||||
|
||||
But let's go down to the Pit -- to where I'm supposedly stationed. You
|
||||
can see my Gatekeeper card get rejected, because it hasn't been in use
|
||||
@@ -591,18 +624,18 @@ included -- no one's seen me with the beard. I didn't have it when I
|
||||
left! That's how long I've been gone. If so much as a private recognizes
|
||||
me, I'll withdraw and never bother you again.
|
||||
|
||||
All I ask is we come and take a look."
|
||||
All I ask is we come and take a look.\"
|
||||
|
||||
Tamara drew a tense, long breath.
|
||||
|
||||
"So what do you want, Adir?"
|
||||
|
||||
"I signed up. I did whatever they asked me to. I pulled through that
|
||||
\"I signed up. I did whatever they asked me to. I pulled through that
|
||||
vicious course. And as soon as I struggled, I was tossed away like hot
|
||||
garbage. They kept telling us, from the second we're drafted, how needed
|
||||
we are, but I guess that's not so.
|
||||
|
||||
I have my own goals in life. My time is precious. I - "
|
||||
I have my own goals in life. My time is precious. I - \"
|
||||
|
||||
"And why is that? What exactly do you do that's superior to serving your
|
||||
country?"
|
||||
@@ -611,7 +644,7 @@ country?"
|
||||
|
||||
"Why did you, really? Why was so important?"
|
||||
|
||||
"Because I signed up for university!", Adir said, heatedly. "Because if
|
||||
"Because I signed up for university!", Adir said, heatedly. \"Because if
|
||||
I wouldn't get out of there instead of sitting like some kind of idiot,
|
||||
I would've rotted there and no one would have twitched.
|
||||
|
||||
@@ -619,7 +652,7 @@ I'm not needed? That's fine and dandy. We all gave it a shot. No hard
|
||||
feelings. But if that's the case, I want my life back. I want to wake up
|
||||
early in the morning, like I always used to. I want to be passionate
|
||||
about what I do. I want to feel loved, and respected. I'd like to do
|
||||
something worthwhile with my time."
|
||||
something worthwhile with my time.\"
|
||||
|
||||
"So aside from these grand statements - what exactly do you want?"
|
||||
|
||||
@@ -634,9 +667,9 @@ drawers, strode up to Adir and handed it to him.
|
||||
|
||||
"What's this?"
|
||||
|
||||
"It's a book," she said, "describing mental illnesses.
|
||||
"It's a book," she said, \"describing mental illnesses.
|
||||
|
||||
Pick one, or get out."
|
||||
Pick one, or get out.\"
|
||||
|
||||
It hurt him to hear those words. He saw them coming, but it hurt all the
|
||||
same.
|
||||
@@ -662,3 +695,208 @@ Only this time, he drew a deep breath, and a resolution formed in his
|
||||
heart. A decision was made, and he will stick to it.
|
||||
|
||||
He got out.
|
||||
|
||||
Chapter I
|
||||
|
||||
Private Adir Levin was just shy of 19 years of age when he was drafted.
|
||||
|
||||
Unlike many, he had had the privilege of knowing his date well in
|
||||
advance -- upwards of a year. It has been six months since he graduated
|
||||
highschool without too much of a struggle, and began working at a big
|
||||
city coffee shop shortly afterwards, aiming to overcome his social
|
||||
awkwardness.
|
||||
|
||||
Though hesitant and neurotic at first, Adir quickly grasped the nuances
|
||||
of working in the rush -- operating the register, sending out the
|
||||
orders, and even making recommendations and casual chatting with the
|
||||
customers coming in. He had been the youngest to ever work there, and
|
||||
rarely came across anyone near his age -- yet he seldom felt out of
|
||||
place. It was exhausting, physical work -- and Adir worked fairly often,
|
||||
well long after he felt his goal was achieved. But he was happy, and
|
||||
fulfilled.
|
||||
|
||||
Two weeks before his draft date, though, even Adir put in the towel --
|
||||
and went off to get a buzzcut and olive green T-shirts, like everyone
|
||||
else told him he should. Adir was never a confrontational character, so
|
||||
he did.
|
||||
|
||||
He sought, above all, a moderate life. A life of purpose, achievement,
|
||||
sure -- but without tribulations, without drama. Certainly without
|
||||
conflict. Generally speaking, Adir simply did not like having much on
|
||||
his plate. Hand him exactly one to three things going on in his life --
|
||||
however big or difficult -- and he would cruise along gently. Anymore
|
||||
than that, however, he would get intensely uncomfortable, and his mind
|
||||
got the better of him.
|
||||
|
||||
Though moderate and unassuming, Adir was not humble nor meek. He knew
|
||||
his ability and especially his unrelenting determination will get him
|
||||
wherever he should desire, so long as he should truly desire it enough.
|
||||
It was this blend of determination and non-confrontational, moderate
|
||||
policy that somehow led him to be a Computing Systems Infrastructure
|
||||
Management coursee, under the Communications Corps. Widely considered to
|
||||
be one of the best occupations in the army (so he heard), CSIM
|
||||
candidates go through a grueling screening process, and those successful
|
||||
later undergo extensive training at the Defense Forces Academy of
|
||||
Computer Professions and Cyberspace defense, where Adir now found
|
||||
himself.
|
||||
|
||||
"What would you like to do in the military?" the Officer who is Not a
|
||||
Commander (why not? He remembers wondering) had asked him at early 16,
|
||||
when he was first summoned to the Recruitment Center.
|
||||
|
||||
"I don't really mind", he said.
|
||||
|
||||
"You probably heard of something. Know someone. What caught your
|
||||
interest?"
|
||||
|
||||
"I never really thought about it. I'm fine with whatever, really"
|
||||
|
||||
"Everyone comes by with such specific requests -- I've had someone tell
|
||||
me the exact squad he wanted to serve in today! You've never heard of
|
||||
anything?"
|
||||
|
||||
Adir was lost in thought.
|
||||
|
||||
"Listen, this isn't about your stats. Let's pretend this was a perfect
|
||||
world -- you could pick absolutely whatever and you get stationed doing
|
||||
it immediately. What do you pick?"
|
||||
|
||||
"Well, I... why do I have to pick? The army picks whatever it needs.
|
||||
Doesn't it?"
|
||||
|
||||
"It does, sure, but it's not just a machine. It's in the military's best
|
||||
interest that you like your role as well -- makes you more productive.
|
||||
That's no promise, of course, but there is some attempt."
|
||||
|
||||
"I really don't care for all that. I'll do whatever the country needs me
|
||||
to. I have no preference whatsoever."
|
||||
|
||||
"Really?" she said, raising an eyebrow.
|
||||
|
||||
"Yeah."
|
||||
|
||||
"What if they put you in a tank?"
|
||||
|
||||
"Then I guess I'll be in a tank."
|
||||
|
||||
"And what if you get stationed as a combat ready soldier on the
|
||||
frontline?"
|
||||
|
||||
"Then I'll go, of course."
|
||||
|
||||
"What if they ask you to be a pilot?"
|
||||
|
||||
"I really don't think they'll ask *me* to be a pilot."
|
||||
|
||||
"Yes, but what if they do?" she asked, somewhat irritated.
|
||||
|
||||
"Then I'll go be a pilot."
|
||||
|
||||
She sighed deeply, and massaged her temples. Adir could not figure out
|
||||
why she was so upset.
|
||||
|
||||
"Okay, let's talk about you for a bit. What do you like to do?"
|
||||
|
||||
Adir considered this.
|
||||
|
||||
"I like... playing the guitar."
|
||||
|
||||
"Would you say you're a good player?"
|
||||
|
||||
"I'm decent. Nothing staggering, though, it's just a hobby"
|
||||
|
||||
"How long have you been playing?"
|
||||
|
||||
"About five, six years now"
|
||||
|
||||
"And that's it? You play the guitar all day?"
|
||||
|
||||
"No, that would be a little crazy. I do other things."
|
||||
|
||||
"What other things?"
|
||||
|
||||
"I cook sometimes. I like reading a lot. I read *a lot*. Uh..."
|
||||
|
||||
The ONC considered this with blatant disinterest.
|
||||
|
||||
"I like computer games too."
|
||||
|
||||
"Computers?"
|
||||
|
||||
"Yeah. Yeah, I like computers."
|
||||
|
||||
"So you're a programmer?"
|
||||
|
||||
"Oh, no no no. I suck at programming. Absolutely terrible. I'm a
|
||||
hardware monkey."
|
||||
|
||||
"A *what?*"
|
||||
|
||||
"A hardware monkey."
|
||||
|
||||
"What on earth is a hardware monkey?"
|
||||
|
||||
"Some people write the code for the computers, because they've got
|
||||
something that I really really don't. And others, who have something
|
||||
else, take care of the computers themselves. The code monkeys and the
|
||||
hardware monkeys."
|
||||
|
||||
"So you... *take care* of computers?"
|
||||
|
||||
"I assemble them, yeah. I built a good dozen by now. It's really
|
||||
interesting."
|
||||
|
||||
"What if the army asks you to build computers?"
|
||||
|
||||
"Oh, they have that? I had no idea! That'd be swell!"
|
||||
|
||||
"They have that, sure, sure. Would you mind if I list that as your
|
||||
preference?"
|
||||
|
||||
"No, not at all".
|
||||
|
||||
The CNO hunched over a flowery pink notebook. Using a bright pink pen
|
||||
with a big pink pom-pom on top, she scribbled in it with small, cursive
|
||||
handwriting.
|
||||
|
||||
He could just make it out -
|
||||
|
||||
*Computers*.
|
||||
|
||||
She then abruptly stood up and surveyed Adir quickly.
|
||||
|
||||
"Good luck," she said and left.
|
||||
|
||||
And now he was here.
|
||||
|
||||
The Academy was nothing like he had envisioned a military base to be --
|
||||
not that he did much envisioning at all, but still. Spring Buds, where
|
||||
he went through boot camp, had been *exactly* what he had envisioned --
|
||||
stuck in the middle of nowhere and chock full of big, ugly green tents
|
||||
and ancient structures and guard posts and lots of dirty empty space and
|
||||
being generally repulsive. It was so alike everything he had seen in old
|
||||
movies that at times he started wondering whether that really took place
|
||||
or was it his vivid imagination.
|
||||
|
||||
This place, however, was a strange mix of that classic vision and a
|
||||
shmancy high-tech office space. Adir's classroom was in a structure that
|
||||
was clearly meant to be temporary -- positioned in a big dusty patch of
|
||||
bare earth in a strange angle -- yet their commander's offices, and the
|
||||
units stationed in the base, sat in a trio of rather small but quite
|
||||
modern buildings, surrounding a paved cobblestone courtyard. It was well
|
||||
kept and had lots of emblems and flags protruding from the upper floors,
|
||||
and had a million passages to and from it -- as if it was the beating
|
||||
heart of the base, and the soldiers flowing into it it's lifeblood.
|
||||
|
||||
However, the base was *ridiculously* small -- Adir could circle it
|
||||
leisurely in just under eight minutes. Also unlike Spring Buds -- which
|
||||
was huge -- was the fact that they were right in the middle of the city,
|
||||
perhaps a 15 minute bus ride from his house. The base was elevated from
|
||||
the street, which was a good 2-3 meters lower, and was surrounded by a
|
||||
tall barbed wire fence covered with thick opaque fabric to keep prying
|
||||
eyes away. It resembled, perhaps, an overly protective neighborhood
|
||||
school much more than a full blown, top secret army base.
|
||||
|
||||
Yet an army base it was, and Adir would not soon forget it. He and his
|
||||
peers waltzed in from the city, sure, but after coming in through the
|
||||
old-school guard post, it was army alright.
|
||||
|
||||
Reference in New Issue
Block a user